The Day I ashame

I was sick of myself today! What wrongs with me actually,might be my nerve is improper function. I thought it was the waste & I wash it off. But,it was the sample that me & my group members prepare for two hours!..At first,when I wash off I didn"t actually reliase until I walk back to my placeand can"t find my sample. I was stung there few second as Idk what should I do..I tell huili about that...she was laughing at me...*luckily she dint blame me for my silly-ness & crazy-ness*. I really feel ashame of myself! How could I do such silly stupid crazy hopeless thing...* i guess i couldn't forget it in my life*
I told my lecturer about it. *with very big courage as I prepare to be lectured/scolded* . He didn"t scold me but instead laughing at me. Asking me to treat it as a lesson. Thanks Dr.Ng...I feel so sorry for my group members. I apologise sincerely..please forgive me. Although I know u guys didn't blame me for it. But I still feel so bad..maybe I will feel better if u guys blame me. I feel so guilty about it. I swear I will be careful & with full concentration next time. should be affect by my gastric too...*drink too much green tea in sushi king*...the medicine is not usefull at all..I stil pain-ing now.....><...please take good care of your gastric while is still healthy..dont end up like me...

Thanks for everyone comfort & even my lecturer...Dr.Ng not even didn't scold me but ask me dun take so serious about it..* your fren look so sad about it,,luckily i didn't scold her if not she sure cry* said by Dr.Ng...I really feel like crying as I feel that I m useless....I waste my frens effort & time...I really get so emo about that. *even now*