Lost Hope

Why is God so unfair to me? I got lots of defect and adding one more since last year. No one know how i feel when someone ask *why your.......like this like that*. Things got worst recently, my period cycle mess up, skin condition getting dry and rough, put on a lot of weight without reason. When ever i mention about my health my mum insist is i over work and quarrel begin. I m very upset with my increase of weight, i eat normal meal and i cant remember when is the last I took steak pizza burger fried chicken. I m a skinny girl since small and I couldn't accept how I look now. Getting fatter, why is God so cruel to me?! =( Take away my one and only advantage. Can u please return it to me? Couldn't get a job till now and is almost one year since I graduate. When people ask: what are u doing now? Have u get a job? I feel so ashamed to answer. I never been in such down in my life.

Sad Tragedy

What had bring us to this? 

I really got no idea 

I think u need to let me know so that I wont do again

U said I hurt u 

But u didn't want to tell me

U said let it by gone

But without speaking out & solve

The thorn & gap will forever be there

I m still the one before

Depend on how u treasure our relationship 

I m always there 

Random thought

Time flies~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Coming to the end of week 5

 *Busy* *Tiring* *Stress* *Gastric* *Headache* company me since week 1 of the semester 

But I enjoy every moment spend in the lab with my gals <3

Experienced the worst lunch time I ever had was on 3.30pm! 

*this-is-how-and-why-my-gastric pill-keep-out-of-stock*

Finished mine last week 

Started to get used with the time spending in the lab

Although we had completed but still going to lab everyday

Start wondering how I m going to be after graduating

Be sure I miss those memorable crazy moment with those gals

*esp-during-the-fyp-moment*

Next week will be the last week we could spend in the lab

Treasure it!

This coming weekend gonna help out for open day! 

Good luck! =)

Random mind

Is the mid of February!

Time really fly

The emo feeling is back as she going to leave next tues =(((

*according to her,she wil only back next yr jan* T.T

I even more more forever alone by then.

Luckily I can manage to sent her off 

*tears-rolling-in-the-eyes*
Next mon classes commence
Gonna be a tough tired semester for me
Hope my health can bare with it
*no more second unconscious plz* 
After that winter semester
Hope I can finish my degree by time
A new journey begin by then
Wonder LEAVE or STAY?
Before I leave I wanna be a brave gal for once
Express my real feeling to him
I cant accept till today ><

8th Day

Time really flies

Is the 8th day of CNY

CNY is the time where by meet all the relatives & friends that hardly can meet

Or I can say meet only once a year 

Enjoy gather with all my friends

Although some I really wanted to meet but didn't 

Every houses serves the same foods drinks

Cookies cakes drinks

What do u expect other than gaining weight?! =)

Happy Dragon Year

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

Hope all my family & friends have a prosperity & fruitful dragon year~ =))

My New Year wishes:

i. Hope to have a smooth year with luck 

ii. Finish my degree on time

iii. Have a healthy body

iv. Hope to be with my love one

v. Stay happy always

*Dear God, please be kind to me this year & grand my wishes* =p

Misunderstand fault

Finally I learn some thing. Said thing indirectly that will create unnecessary misunderstanding.  Once the misunderstanding is there & not solved there is no turning back although how I wish so. Don't be too 冲动. I really regret to ask u read the post if not everything will still maintain, if our relationship will ended up like this. Is really out of my expectation. U misunderstood the post I asked u to read. I just say I m sad n disappointed not hurting. All I want is caring from you only =( U really misunderstand my meaning. That why u feel pressured n responsibilities. I dun have the right to ask for back together although I wish to. But u said we can get back to olden day as fren, but it seem not. I did try to talk but u seem so cold to me. >< I really not used to it. Maybe I used to the time when we play crazily. I just want u to know i still got feel to u. If u do, can we dun let the misunderstanding separate us? I feel so ke xi we ended up like that if both of us still got feeling on. Honestly, i cant put down this relationship till now. I just want to speak out my real feeling & don't want to have any regret again.

If u got new one, hope u can stay happily. I will heal my sadness.. :)

A New Year

Happy New Year! =)

Is the First day of 2012

A brand new year where by we start all over again

Dear God,

please grant my wishes,

> Have a healthy body

> Concentrate on studies

> Surround by luck & lucky star

> Can be with my love one

> Hoping to have what I wish for

> Stay happy

Hoping to have a fruitful & prosperity year!

God,please treat me nicely. Ty~ 

The Last Day of 2011

Is the last day of 2011

This year really gonna be unforgettable year for me

In the sense of,

The difficult moment that I been through

*thedaywhereireceivethemsg*

Where by forcing myself to concentrate on study while going through the hell moment

Finally I get over it during that moment 

But unfortunately it came back

I will try to occupied myself everyday

*how sad is my life*

I try step out my first step

I really hope things wont get till that worst even we can't be back to good friend

Is that means I lost a good friend?

*which i dont wish*

I really didn't aspect this will be the way of settlement

Honestly,I m very regret to let U see the post
Can u pretend u never read before?
I read back again I dint say u hurt me
U misunderstand my meaning
  If not,everything will not happen and I can't even put u down until now. =(

Do u have the feel to get back tgt?
I want

Or u have new target ady?

And of course the Happy-Memorable-Cherish-Joyful moment I been through

I will never forget those few important days

*thedayifinallysolvemydoubt*

*thedayiwishtohaveit*

The moment when we are together

*although is just a short period of time*

I will keep that as my memory

Thank you for being with me

I cherish those moment. =)

The day when I checked through

Well is a challenge for me 

I will faced it no matter how

My health has showed it *red light*

Fainted in lab for the first experiment

Phobia

When Holidays Start

Holiday's start! Is the second day of it. After a year of hectic study pathway with 3 semester. The moment after exam, we went to celebrate Athan's earlier b'day. Next station - k11. Release the stresssss~~ And finally comes to night we went for Biotech club gathering at Hartz Chicken. *full* Overall was a happy & enjoy day..
*The only not perfect, my dear didnt join for k session and the dinner ><*

Biotech Club Dinner 161211

11 more days 2011 will be ended

We are welcoming 2012 soon!